The Boys!

My whole life I wanted children-boys! I'm not sure why! Maybe because I realize that girls can get into too much trouble and are very moody-that's how I was! When I first found out I was pregnant, I prayed for a boy-and wahlah-out came Nickolaus 9 months later, Then came Ryan, 20 months later-I am truly a blessed woman! They are my pride and joy! There are days when I want to rip my hair out because they absolutely drive me insane! Then there are those days that I wish wouldn't end-like, when we are on vacation, or just hanging out in the yard being funny and crazy together! They make me see the world in an entirely different way. as the saying goes "out of the mouths of babes..."

I wonder where they get some of their thoughts-how their little minds work! When one of our goats died recently, Nick came over to me and hugged me and said "mommy, don't cry, it will be okay!" He is a comforter-at 3 yrs old. I'm supposed to comfort him-right?? When I was losing my hair from the chemo-it was falling out everywhere, so I let Shawn shave it-I was mortified. Once again-Nick says to me "it's okay Mommy, it will grow back"

Then there's Ryan-just learning to put words together. His first complete sentence was "Boston SUCKS!" which we taught him to say, just to irritate my dad ! We of course are Yankee fans! It's not what Ryan says, but how he says it, that makes you laugh. The way he says "All Aboard" or "Let's go Yankees!" or when he hugs Nick and says " I sorry Nick". They are truly my little loves!!

Then there's Shawn-I have come to love him more than I thought humanly possible, over the past 5 years that we've been married. We have packed a lot into 5 years. 2 kids, a house, countless cars, vacations, farm animals, dogs, cancer, LIFE...I'm sure to him it feels like we've been married 80 years. He is an amazing person-strong and compassionate. He has a soft side that few people see. I love to watch him with the kids-he plays more than they do-it's awesome! I still can't believe that he made it thru my cancer treatment. We were all pushed to our limits-for close to 2 years. ugh, that's a long time! But here we are-at the other end-we hope-and we all made it. The kids didn't even flinch when I was bald-I was still Mommy. Shawn endured-strong as ever, but is much less stressed out now-I hope! He's my big love! I pray they know how truly blessed I feel to be a part of their lives. always!